I know I'm supposed to watch it in awe of this girl who found herself pregnant and broke out of her strict and Stepford type upbringing to make it on her own and be her own person so she could raise her daughter in a home of unconditional love, and yes that was a very brave and beautiful thing to do. But sometimes I look at the scenarios and I listen to the arguments and it starts me thinking of how hard is to keep trying to do it all on your own. When you are so hell bent on doing it yourself exactly how you want it to be done, you can't help but hinder your own growth and hurt others in the process. Even if those others are crazy moms like Emily Gilmore.
Watching it now as opposed to at age 18-25 has me looking at it from this different perspective because I don't think that young thing sitting in a trailer in Auburn would have noticed then. Then again maybe I would have noticed it and learned a valuable lesson much sooner than my current 33 year old self has just learned when I read...
The truth is I have nothing to prove because the only thing I would accomplish proving is how much in need of Him I am. The old me is gone, praise God, and I have Christ who lives in me and for me before God, and the only thing I have to do is so simple - have faith in the Son. Faith in not some random person, but in the One who LOVES me and SACRIFICED himself for me. It's such a simple concept that I so often try to complicate with my own thoughts and agenda. Oh to live truly and completely by faith in the One who can accomplish all things. In the meantime I continue to pray that He will strip me of myself so I will truly see I belong to Him.
Any more Loreleis out there?