tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1068387947996737649.post5058260070676838807..comments2023-07-10T04:50:22.864-04:00Comments on An Inner Disposition: opening doors to dark tunnelssarah mayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11682360315488859716noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1068387947996737649.post-23992488282252289422016-05-04T22:39:04.935-04:002016-05-04T22:39:04.935-04:00I was sitting here trying to think of what my &quo...I was sitting here trying to think of what my "darkness" is currently, and honestly the first thing I thought of was my own heart. Facing the darkness of my own sin and ugliness is pretty damn scary, it's the tunnel that I would love to avoid. How can I be so impatient with my children who are still so little? How can I speak to my husband with such a sarcastic, snarky tone, again and again? How is it that my go to reactions are just to avoid people instead of engaging in love and service? Am I really that bad deep down in my heart? Truly? Of course the answer is a resounding YES. But man, to go there.... And to trust that Jesus already went there for me and made it so that the "there" part isn't condemnation anymore, but redemption. It's almost unbelievable. Which is why I need constant reminding, or else the darkness of my sin just weighs me down and the guilt steals all my joy. Thank God for the light. Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08516284406514375947noreply@blogger.com